"IM OUT"

Why did i say "I'm out".. it was a reflex..when i was hurt i can't help but think about stopping the relationship, something that i really want, it was something I started to feel, like these is real, but I don't know why it has to end. I admit I'm so insecure..that's something i hate about myself. But could she be more of a help,? what i mean is.. if i was insecure she could help me out so that i wont feel insecure, i waited for the" i love you too" but she never gave it to me, instead took it as i was disturbing her, on her party with her ex boyfriend and their friends,. Well maybe i was just scared that something might happen again. So why am i scared if she just gave me the assurance. Instead she told me to sleep coz they are not going home yet, she could have just replied I LOVE YOU TOO..don't worry nothing will happen.. but no.. she got mad and told me that her ex boyfriend is mad at her coz of my text.. so what am i suppose to do?.. That's the reason why i got hurt and said "I'm out"... well as long as she keeps on going to manila and go out with her ex, its much better to stay out of the picture. I love her but this wont work out. Plus how about the other guy? the good guy..is he blind? i pity him.. but its none of my business anymore, i will have to leave it all.