Year had gone so fast

this aint a picture of arizona, or maybe it is. I do not know coz I just got it from a site it looks kinda cold out there isn't it?

The reason I paste it there is just for nothing all i want to say is its starting to get cold here in arizona just like one year ago when i landed here, I even said to myself, "america must be so rich coz they got aircondition all around the country " hehe..amm i dont have much to say anyway. i just can't sleep so i thought about writing something again.. I know nobody will ever get to read this.. I dont care! no i care but what I mean is its fine with me if nobody reads my blog..

Life is really funny, I dont know why sometimes we tend to be so serious about life, Life is a game we play around here just like little kids playing with their toys, we win or we lose it wont matter we all lived the same life,..its all about what your role is that make you who you are, like in batman begins katie homes said " its what you do that defines you" i forgot the first line anyway.. it was something like " its not who you are.. its bla bla bla" sorry i cant remember anymore..hehe but you know what i meant..

So laugh about life okay if your broke then laugh that you are broke if your down then laugh and say im down..dont be so serious about life, its a gift that God gave us to experience and to play out part as a being on earth..it is something we need to appreciate and love..Life is a true experience.

A walk in the desert, i walk all the time noot on that kind of desert but rather here in arizona, now the climate is getting to be cool so its really cool to walk around..this afternoon i went to a mall i walked to a nearest bus stop and waited for about 30 minutes. And when i got inside the mall i felt so hungry so i ate some chinese fast food.. then after eating i walked around the mall looking around.. checking some items but never bothered to buy them, so went out the mall waited for the bus this time it took me 1 hour.

Then i thought about buying some sood for my lunch breaks at work so i stopped on a near market place bought some food then walked home,. Thats one of my routine here in the desert, i still dont consider this my home or a place for good..i dont even know why i am here,..im working and thats it..i dont have real friends like ones i can call anytime and hang-out with, even though im with my relatives here coz i am just staying here with them.. i still feel so alone..i wanna walk through that desert and search for a better life.. but right now im gonna make the most of my life while i still cannot do anything with it.. desert is not my choice..its the only option..life can be lonely, but it wont stop me from trying..

k guess that it for the day.. adios

7:11pm

its 7:11pm, im getting ready for work..there is nothing much to say coz i just woke up.. but im hoping everything will be okay..for myself , for my family and for the world..i hope that one day when i wake up, there is no news on any news channel, and everything is good.. nothing happened no bombs exploded, no murder happend, no currruption in government, no bad weather, no stealing, no fighting, just for a day without anything like that..would'nt it be nice to turn on the TV and listen to something like.. today..nothing happend in the world..no news at all..strange and impossible maybe..well thats a wish so..we will never know..

k guess i have to go..i have to eat and..work. k thats al in my head for today so.. goodluck

i hate sometimes i love sometimes

its not easy being me, locked up in a small world, making life work, dont you dare look at me, if you wanted something to see, then turn your face around and then you might just see.. something else but thats not me..i came here for a reason not for its seasons..im not perfect im just a reject..my tale is boring like someone is snoring.. every night im awake..thinking of how long it will take.. to see you again and maybe pretend, like i dont care, coz i do care,, but i think its just unfair,, to love you like no other.. but in your heart there is another..deep down my heart you know it bleeds.. but my heart is so deep you would not notice it bleed.. i have no tears and i got no fears.. but if you try maybe i might hear a shout in my ear,,sometimes i hate this.. coz life just aint like this..for me but for you i think you dig this..my world is simple i picture it like how it is when its simple..same shit i tell..everyday i feel like hell, but anyways i also love so no matter how i hate sometimes i love..and when i love somtimes i try to be the best coz i dont want no test..if i failed you might laugh and and if i passed that aint enough..all i want is you. one for me and another for you..coz like i said i love you like no other.. but in your heart there is another..wish me luck? yah wish one for me and two for you.. i might get none for me and you get one for you..you know what that means? coz i hate sometimes i love sometimes

(just wrote it as fast as i can, one time)

im back

hi.im.sorry.for.not.writing.anything.it.has.been.a.year.since.iwrote.something.here.
One.thing.is.im.not.sure.if.you.guys.are.reading.anything.here.but.anyways.im.bored.right.now.
so.it.wont.matter.anyway.

im.tired.from.work.oh.yah.i.am.working.now.kinda.weird.huh?.but.yah.i.am.working.and.i.am.no.
longer.at.home.im.here.in.arizona.phoenix.kinda.lonely.out.here.its.not.a.fun.place.to.live.
but.its.okay.for.me.im.used.to.not.having.fun.so.im.alright.i.will.be.one.year.here.by.nov.22.and.
it.feels.like.it.was.just.yesterday.when.i.was.not.doing.anything.with.my.life.

im.starting.to.have.new.friends.from.work.but.onlyat.work.coz.thats.the.only.time.i.can.see.them.
some.do.invite.me.out.but.i.just.cant.go.with.some.reasons.like.i.dont.have.a.ride.But.maybe.in.future.
i.can.go.with.them.They.are.fun.

Well.thats.it.for.now.coz.i.dont.know.what.to.talk.about..till.next.time